it is

Sometimes (pretty often, actually) I re-live the past in my head. And one of my favorite moments is that one moment where I'm on the couch with Sebastian, watching something super-boring (like News), waiting for Family Guy or Scrubs to start, or for Sebastians bus. I have my head in his lap while he's playing with my hair, and all of a sudden I realize how great this guy is. That whole fling could turn into something totally different than I expected it to. I turn my head and look at him, and get chills and butterflies in my stomach, and after a while my hands get all wet and akward. He looks back down at me, and I'm speechless.

"You hurt" I managed to say. He kept playing with my hair, watching the TV. I got dizzy and hungry and full and sick and nervous and excited and all these confusing feelings at once. Thats when I realized I was in love. For the first time the thought didnt scare me. And he continued to watch TV and play with my hair. And that's exactly what I want us to do for the rest of our lives. It hurt. It was, and it is; love.
hei pus, love gurthi